Former Patriots linebacker Ted Johnson yesterday described his life as "a little scary, a little unsure, a lot of anxiety, a lot of disappointment, shame," in his first television interview since he told the Globe and the New York Times that his life had been ruined because of concussions suffered while playing football. Johnson, who had accused Patriots coach Bill Belichick of forcing him to practice with a concussion in 2002, backed off on that stance a bit in his interview with ESPN's Wendi Nix. "I don't want to place blame anywhere," Johnson said. "It probably could all go around, to a little bit of everybody. I can't sit here and honestly say that I think Bill Belichick knew what second-impact syndrome was, and if he put me in there that could potentially happen. I can't sit there and say that. I have to believe he didn't do what he did to intentionally try to hurt me physically."