Josh Brown admitted to physically and emotionally abusing his wife and called himself a sex-addicted "deviant" who viewed himself as "God" and his wife as "my slave", according to entries in his own journals, emails to his former wife, and a letter he wrote to friends, which were obtained by SNY.

Brown was arrested in May 2015 and charged with a fourth-degree domestic violence assault.

Brown famously described the incident as "just a moment," even after police documents showed that his wife had accused him of "more than 20" instances of domestic violence.

"I have physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man," Brown wrote in one of his journal entries. Just below that he circled the words "I have abused my wife."

Brown said his issues with his behavior towards women date back to when he was "molested as a young boy (around 6)".

"I have been a liar for most of my life," he wrote. "I made selfish decisions to use and abuse women starting at the age of 7 to fill this void. I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them. My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero.

"Because I never handled these underlying issues I became an abuser and hurt Molly physically, emotionally and verbally. I viewed myself as God basically and she was my slave."